that i notice among the people i'm around during the day...jealousy...it's kinda funny...it's also kinda embarassing for me...like i'm seeing something that someone does't really want to show anyone...it's especially apperant in girls...jealousy 's a funny thing...i like to think i don't get jealous really...but that'd be a lie, actually the reason i'm writing this is because i was feeling it...it sucks...it's probably one of the worst feelings in the world...because i think to be jealous you have to understand that you're second best to someone else...i also think we aren't jealous of people...we're jealous of things of theirs we can't have...i think  it's also really hard to actually be jealous of items...my case is about being second to...pretty much everyone...i'm not jealous of the people they feel i'm second to, i'm jealous of the fact that they're being chosen by people i want...fuck this...i hate this shit...i really just wish all this shit would leave...i'm having a shitty time with this whole thing...everything has to be so fucking complicated...i understand as i get older, shit just gets harder because i have to deal with it like that, but FUCK THAT...i'm just bitching...i'm not in a bad mood or anything...i'm pretty much just bored i think...i really miss someone...i really want to meet someone else...i wish i could change my age and gender so i could punch someone else...ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!...i love meeting people...i met someone yesterday...it's funny because i don't know her name...but i got her number...and i had a dream about her the next night...idk what the situation is tho...i don't really care...i don't actually feel like i need anyone...i kinda like being able to spread myself out among a few people...but, as with anything...there's only so much of me...and i can only stand being stretched so thin for so long...idk...i feel like there's something i can be angry about...i thinik those blogs are much more interesting...but anyway...i'm gonna go think about stuff...later dudes

 

-Shane